Of Being Lonely

Sometimes work life sucks. Especially if you’re single. And by single, i mean NOT IN A RELATIONSHIP. Not that I’m bitter forever but sometimes, loneliness just gets the better of me. It creeps at times i least expect it.

Just like now while i’m doing the groceries. This alone activity has been my routine every after twoo weeks for the past year. Everything’s fine…well, Until now. Out of the blue, the sudden feeling of being forever alone crept in the crevices of my “sabaw” brain. Ideas and memories come rushing in like how better it was in college where i had friends and dorm/room mates accompany you while doing ze groceries for the month. Now, being at work, yea, i do have friends but either they’re too far away or they’d prefer to go party than be with me and listen to my little ramblings of how hard is it to decide on the menu for the week.

Then bam! A slight churn in my heart signals my brain. The brain then interprets the slight churn as something like “shet, gusto ko nang magka boyfriend.”

I want to have that someone whom i can call just for, well for starters, doing groceries. Then i want to have someone who’s there so i can hold his hand or who’s there so i can cuddle with.

There’s just so much love my heart wants to offer. Too bad nobody seems to want to take it.

So i just sit here on the couch. Alone. Waiting for my hot soup in a bread bowl to arrive.